Feeling Blah..

I don't feel well...and it feels like it's a continuing problem. I'm trying to feel better, but I feel like just as I do the devil brings something else that causes me to worry or get upset.

At work today, we watched a video on how to have a terrific day everyday. And despite how awful a morning I had, I felt like it was exactly what I needed to hear. Then I come back and do the things I know I need to do....and find out things that just upset me...and let it get to me. Then I remember...think hopeful good thoughts...and that works til my head starts hurting...

And that's how my day and weeks have gone. It sucks! I'm tired of it. I feel like I'm in a constant fight to be happy, to be joyous, to feel blessed and I feel like I'm losing everytime. It makes me so frustrated. I'm going to try to update with everything that is actually going on soon...Maybe it's the power that if I don't say things are going bad that it won't be....and yet it still does. I just hate whining...and I feel like that's all I'm ever doing now..

ARGH...Back to thinking positive....or just going to sleep :)!